The Lord continues to give me those pockets of sunshine that I prayed for a few days ago. Whenever I start to feel overwhelmed, inadequate, insecure, or afraid (when you think about it, it’s all just rooted in fear anyway), He reminds me in some way that I’ve got this! Like this evening, after our very long first day of orientation, I was able to turn my brain off and just sit outside and have much needed conversations with family, enjoy the view, the weather, and the Crosstown (where I live) atmosphere. In that moment, I felt like I could do this.
But what I also have to remember is that there will come a time, SOON…probably bright and early Monday morning, when again, I’ll feel like I don’t got this! As information is being thrown at us from every direction and expectations are being applied, I’ll probably feel like I can’t meet those expectation and the information is too much to handle. When…WHEN that happens, I have to make a conscious effort to look for my pocket of sunshine. Not sure where it will come from exactly, or how bright the ray will be, but I have to trust that God will give it to me. I’ll hear something, or see something, that will reassure me that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be, and that the place where I am is definitely good for me.