Maybe it’s because I’m tired. I hope that’s what it is. Because again, I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing and that I’m not supposed to be here. It’s so weird. Doing homework tonight, just reading, and I felt like I barely understood what I was reading. I felt stupid. Like why does…

MTR calls them “Reach-Back Partners.” I call her a gift from God. Another pocket of sunshine that I asked for, prayed for. I met Jasmine at Central BBQ today. Never been to Central BBQ but heard it was one of THE places to eat here in Memphis. The food was cool. The atmosphere was cool….

I found that one thing. What I learned, just now, is that it’s important to find that one thing after a big transition. I’ve been freaking out, often, since I’ve been here in Memphis. Wondering if I really made the right decision, can I really teach high school students English, will I ever feel like…

DAY 23 – Saturday Mixed a little bit of relaxation with homework. After orientation, I had to turn my brain off. Friday night I was able to JUST relax. Saturday, I had to remember that I’m not here on vacation, but this is school. Not just school, a master’s program, that requires me to maintain…

Orientation ends… Monday classes begin… Tapped. Out.  

When most people make a life change, it’s subtle. What I mean by subtle is, everything in their life doesn’t all change at one time. When people change jobs, they do so right in their hometown. When they start their new job, although the job is new, their surroundings are still the same. They still…

You would think I’ve been here for months already, and just working through these days, trying to understand, cope, adjust, make a home. It’s only been like 2 weeks. The hard part is trying to see who else is feeling the way I’m feeling, without letting them know that I’m feeling these things. I look…

It was bound to happen that’s what they all said Bound to question the thoughts in my head Why in the world am I here? Yet again, facing another fear? I was comfortable where I was, content, cool Now I’m sitting here looking like a fool At least that’s how I feel Knowing those feelings…

Clearly this didn’t upload properly from my phone last night… so here it is… Since when did 6:30 am become “sleeping in?” This coming from someone who would roll out of bed at 8:00 am and work started at 8:00 am. But tonight, I happily set my alarm for 6:30. Crazy! Am I really taking…